“They saw the light and followed the star, but then came reason and mockery of the world; then came faint-heartedness and apparent failure; then came weariness and disillusionment…”

“Death was no longer nothingness, a void negation… [it met with suffering in] a raging or mocking curiosity as to how much further it can go.”

“There was no escape except into what was still worse.”


“Everything becomes questionable as I consider it closely, everything slips away and dissolves.”

 “Despair is the result of each earnest attempt to go through life with virtue, justice, and the understanding to fulfill their requirements…” 

“I am only aiming at… saving my life by giving it meaning again.”


“Children live on one side of despair, the awakened on the other side.”

“Then also we undertook something apparently impossible, then also we traveled in the dark, not knowing our direction and not having the slightest prospects… yet we had something within us stronger than reality or probability… faith in the meaning and necessity or our action.”

“A long time dedicated to small details exalts us…”

“It was not Leo who had deserted and disillusioned me, but only that I had been so weak and foolish as to misinterpret my own experiences… to consider the journey a failure.”


“Perhaps it is sad and yet beautiful…”